#10. I love you like a love song, baby.

Did you see Shankar's name? :)

Okay, sorry for the super low quality pictures haha. So. I'm here to update. Cause i've nothing to do and my dear boy's sleeping after his long day at work haha. Sigh. Hope he has gotten enough rest this afternoon. :( Haha. So okay. Brief update cos' i'm gonna pack my things. Another few more days and byebye sg again haha. :( Sad case i know. I'm super super super reluctant to leave sg. WHY? Oh simple. Him, friends, and my one band practice that i'm gonna miss! Okay i gotta admit. Band isn't ALL that bad. It depends on how you look at it haha. For me, ever since Mr Chua came to teach us, i found band not a bad place to be in. :) In fact, i found music more interesting and i even started picking up piano again! Haha alright. I used to detest band as it was too stressful..? Haha. Come to think of it, it isn't bad so i'm gonna dedicate myself to band. I promise, excos haha. :) Okay! I shall start the post right!

24/11. Exco meeting @ Jurong Central Park's Mac.

So okay. We were there for a few reasons: New designs for band tee. Finally. , Secondary one 2012 CCA Open house. Eg. Designs for banners. , Design for JWSB's crest and logo, and slogan too haha. So okay. I got a few snaps..

Left: Candid shot of Adilah. Right: Candid shot of Junpeng.

Okay. See those shoelaces on both pictures? Haha. We got it from Jiayi. But bought by Yuteng haha. Think Jiayi mentioned that it was supposedly for the birthday peoples haha. Okay la, cyt. I know you're reading this haha. Thank you ok! Hehe. That's not all! Cos' band had a barbeque. Okay, some might think it's successful, some might think it's fail. I think the barbeque part was epic fail one. :( Haha. For some reason la. I'm not gonna say anything out but.. yeah haha. But did get along well with Jon and Vicky. Oh especially Vicky haha. Keep joking around, making me laugh haha. And thanks to Kirstin, Angie, Adilah and Hazirah. Always making my day. Let me emphasize. ALWAYS. Haha. Love you all! Kekeke. Some photos la hor. Hehe.

Hehe, I'm so strong. Can carry this big and heavy girl up there haha. :)
And look at this..


Hohoho. Was it Mr Han or Jonathan who was bbqing this?

Haha so ok. I did enjoy myself with the rest la. Wanted to take a few shots with Shuqi, Serena and Jiayi. But they like so busy with the gift xchange. :( Oh yeah! I forgot. I got Shufang's present! Hehe. Which is...


THIS HAHAHA. *points to the teabag*. Haha no la. :P It's the cup la obviously. Hehe. Thank you Shufang! Ok, recently have been LOVING to play and fool around with this girl. See la she. Play play play only hehe. :P And keep knowing my weak spot when i don't know hers! :( Aiyo. This girl haha. I LOVE YOU LA HOR! :) Hehe.


Okay sian. I couldn't go for the awards damn. :( Haha. Nevermind. It'll be a stay home Tuesday for me! At home rotting. x.x Ah gosh. Haha. Have been working on Temple Run and Tap Sonic. Haha. I did better in Tap Sonic so.. YAY!


Hohoho, my gaming not so bad so don't judge me! :(

Haha. And my phone's disabled now sigh. :( This is H O R R I B L E. My life's miserable haha. :( So ok. On 28/11. Out with my dear boy before heading for band. Yalah i was unwell. So sad hor. :( I took a candid shot of him. ^^ Should i post..? Haha. Think better not. :( Later he scold me then ignore me haha. :( But the photo really really nice haha. ^____^

Alright! Just a short short post. Before i say goodbye to sg. :( Sigh. And ending with a photo of my carefully drawn Spongebob. :P Enjoy!

NOTE: This is why i fail art. I can never draw properly. :( Okay baibai!

Okay this is extra. This is the song i'm working on. ^____^ Beethoven Moonlight Sonata.
Enjoy the song!

#9. Hey love. This is for you.

Did you know i've been thinking more than i ever have ever since i knew you?
Did you know that you were the only one i ever felt comfortable with?
Did you know that you were the one who told me what happiness was about?
Did you know that everytime i see you i forget everything that's wrong and remember all that's right?
Did you know how much i truly love it when i receive your sweet texts?
Did you know how much i want to spam text you i love you?
Did you know how much my day is made everytime i meet you?
Did you know how much i missed you every single day?

Did you know i still remember the first sentence you said to me indirectly on twitter? Cheerup.
Remembered the first day we met? In jurong point starbucks haha. Though we didn't really talk much, i somehow felt safe with you even though i just knew you. It was strange at first. I didn't know why i felt that way when we were just friends. As time passed by, we tweeted to each other almost everyday. I remember i was always moody at that time, so you gave me your number to contact you if i needed someone to talk to. We chatted everyday remember? Haha.

On 17/9 1201. Hohoho. Haha. We did quarrel over little things, but still i knew you did all these due to concern. You always wanted the best for me. Actually, you aren't really demanding. So don't worry about being too demanding or anything k. Haha. I know you'll be reading this. Hm, think you'll be shy and honoured after seeing that this post is dedicated to you.

I know i can't possibly explain how much i love you over here.. but i know that you can feel it. Right? Haha. It'll be a great loss to me if i lose you. I'll feel as if the entire world fell apart. Alright. I miss you, i really do. To me, it's like been months ever since i last saw you.

Do you know why this post is for you? Cos' i love you. Oh you know that. (:
Okay i feel like the luckiest girl on earth cos' i have you. Hehe. You mean the whole world to me. You taught me alot of things. I used to always never think how my parents think. But you taught me to think for them, and to not blame them.

So to end, i want to say. Thank you for everything you've gave me. It's priceless and i think no one will ever teach me what you've taught me. You're irreplaceable. I love you. And happy belated second month, dear. Mwa.



Okay la. I'm kind enough to add onto this post cos' i'm too bored haha. So okay. The streaming results are out! And i'm going to.... 3E1. Whooo haha. Taking pure bio & geog. Still remember on the day of the release of results, i was being sucha idiot complaining to my mum. She wanted to go orchard, but i wanted to see my results. Haha. In the end she still let me go cos' i was feeling really uneasy. Haha. So okay. At least i'm not in poa class so it's not so bad. Haha. In the same class with my Kirstin and Kimmi Oppa! Haha. Provided kimmi doesn't appeal. :( Haha. Okay la. Alot of strong people in my future class ugh. Think i'm gonna lag behind haha. Okay la i'm prepared for it already. ): But nevermind. Will seek help kekeke. Just thankful that i didn't drop to na haha. I thought i failed my overall. x.x I don't know where that idea came from but yeah. I did thought that i'll drop but thankfully i didn't. ^__^ Haha.

Alot of things happening. I'm travelling again next week. ): 2 weeks this time round. Wonder how i'm gonna survive in the cold ugh. So okay. I'm gonna miss sg. Badly. I don't want go japan la. Tired of it already sigh. ): Haha.

Oh yes. My china trip haha. Actually, nothing much ah. Haha. Just ate alot of things. And i'm too lazy to upload my photos haha. Tbh, i didn't take much cos' i was busily eating. Eating till i can't eat so much in sg already haha. Okay.


Okay so. Welcome to Shantou. It's a rather undeveloped town with alot of construction sites and factories. Well, mainly factories. And my family back there. Many of them are successful managers of the factories. Well okay i'm jealous haha. My family's big. Really big. 7 brothers, 4 sisters, 9 aunts, 9 uncles, 3 nephews, 4 cousins. Okay la. I got 3 nephews already. Sound so old right haha. ): Okay. I'm gonna show you my personal favourite food in shantou.....


TAAAADAAAAAHH! It's snails hahaha. They are really nice when hot haha. Okay la. You should try really. Alright. Time to prepare for band. Baibai. ^___^

#8. "Looks aren't everything. I'm not gonna say they don't matter, but there's stuff that matters more." - Hannah Montana.

PART 1.
So hey readers! I'm back before going for band which starts at 9.15am sharp. Time check. It's 7 in the morning, and thanks to my brother whom i requested him to wake me up at 6.30am, i could blog! Well, i might not want to blog anymore when i come back from band so, i think i better do it now.

3 more days before i fly to China.
And i'm really reluctant to travel this time round. I'm kinda sick of airplanes as i've been taking them almost every year? And i've been taking Singapore Airlines ever since i was 3 months old. This sucks right? Haha. Okay. But still, i'll TRY to enjoy myself over there. (: Okay, shall post some random things to fill this blog up. ^______^

#1. "Be joyful always."

We've to admit. We tell many people to cheerup, when we ourselves can't cheerup. But it's okay. That just means that you care for that person. Who taught me to be joyful always? Haha, simple. Dear, Kirstin, Adilah, Angie. I still remembered. Just a few days back, dear texted me that he was upset that i kept thinking of the past. I still have those messages, to remind me that i shouldn't think of the past anymore. I didn't want to make him worry or whatsoever. It was kind of a painful lesson. I did tell him everything i felt after that, and you know what? I felt so much better. So much lighter. I guess, he's right. I should tell him my problems more in the future.

#2. Admiring natural beauty.

This is the view from my room. Everytime i feel upset, i'll just look at this view for 30 minutes. It somehow makes me feel better. Out of technology, focusing on the natural beauty in Singapore, and nothing else. How great is this.

#3. The change in us.

Noticed how much we've changed since young? When we were young, even little things like bubbles cheered us up. But now? Nah, it's lame. Haha. Some of you might think that way, some might not. But it's okay. And i believe all that makes us happy now is modern technology eh? Haha. Like this..


OR "I want a smartphone." or "I want an iPod touch." or "I want a laptop." Well, all these are demands. We are really COOL in this area, in my opinion haha. We always want to get what we want, and if we don't get it, we'll still try other ways to get it. Simply perserverance huh. Haha. Even me at times. I do the same. But i'm different. I give up way too easily haha. Horrible, ain't i? ): Haha.

And we might like other people too. Like Jonghyun and Key. ^____^


And we also want to date them and so on haha. This is what fan girls usually wish for haha. So you see.. we've moved on to the new technology. It makes us for who we are now, whether in a bad or good way. Of course, there are bad points about technology. You can get cyberbullied over the net like Facebook and Twitter. You will also get distracted for people like me, and might not know your priorities anymore. But there're its good points too! You can easily chat with someone you've never met for a really long time, and chat with him/her, and it's free & convienient. Okay, as much as i want to list out more, i can't as i'm running short of time. I've only another half an hour before i've to leave home to meet Adilah and Kirstin for breakfast later on. In mac, hopefully. ^______^ Haha. Okay.

#4. Don't know the meaning of the words? Go dictionary.com!

Words. Some are hard to say, some are difficult in terms of meaning, some are difficult in terms of phrasing. Not all words can be found in the dictionary though. I see people reading dictionaries on the train. Like wtf right? Haha. I know it's ridiculous, but i did that before. WHY? That's because i forgot to bring my storybook everytime. And as i didn't want Mr Aziz to catch me, i just read a dictionary every single morning. But it did affect my English in a good way. I had a wider range of words i could use in my dictionary. Oh that reminds me. I haven't returned you your edictionary, dear. ):

Okay. I'll be back posting again. Adding some points below. And this would probably be my last time blogging before i head to China. But i'll definetely blog before i fly off again. But to Japan this time round. Time check. It's 7.38am. Time for me to get ready. Baibai. ^______^


PART 2.
Alright, just came back from band. I'm terribly tired after a wii game with Kirstin at my place. After sending her back, i went by a shop. I'm now considering whether to get Samsung Galaxy Ace or Galaxy 2. Well, galaxy acce because of it's functions?, and galaxy 2 because of the front camera haha. But still, i'm considering which one to get. ^_______^ Haha.


Yoshi reminds me of dearest. Okay, this is for youuuuuu. Mwa.

Do you know how much i love you?
Do you know how much i love to go out with you and just you?
Do you know how happy you made me even when it's just a text saying I love you?
Do you know that i smile to myself everytime you send me a message?
Do you know how much i miss you at this point of time?
.............

I don't know how many more questions do i have in mind. But you know what? I love you. End of story. The moment you hug me, i feel so secure and really warm. Everytime i rest on you, i can easily drift to sleep because you're too comfortable. 101% more comfortable then my bed, i promise. I'll get a yoshi soft toy.. i want to bring it around with me everywhere i go. Even when i go overseas. I'll hug it to sleep everyday and will call it after your name. I'm sure everytime i see yoshi, it'll immediately remind me of you. You're really special, too special in my life. I've never met anyone like you before. I've never met a boy whom i'm so comfortable with. Everytime i see your face, i'll start smiling as you remind me of Nichkhun. I'm amazed that i've Nichkhun number 2 as my boyf haha. You hug me while we're watching movie. When i usually feel extremely cold in the cinema and i always needed to bring a jacket, i actually didn't feel a single bit cold when you hug me. You gave me warmth.. I love you. I really do. Mwa. This is for you and only you.

#7. If you were the tear in my eye, I wouldn't cry, for the fear of losing you.

So hello! I'm back after a rather long time. Okay, let me make a confession. My iPhone's being taken away. Had a hard time accepting the fact, and cried alot. And really alot. Was always emoing at home, and refused to do anything. I was in a bad mood ALL the time, but on texting, i sounded alright. So okay. What couldn't let me let go of my iPhone was partly, or i would say half of the reason, is TWITTER. It's been days since i parted with my iPhone. I couldn't tweet for days, and i felt truly bored. Okay, i can't believe i'm actually blogging 'bout this.. but i think i should really say out whatever that's on mind over here. If not this blog would defeat its purpose. So okay, my confession's done. So now, shall blog 'bout what happened.


My mom replaced my iPhone with a iPod classic. Like wtf right. iPod classic's more expensive than iPod touch fgs. And yet she still bought it. Okay anyway, better than nothing right? So thank you, mom. ^_____^ And to be perfectly honest, i'm not as lonely anymore as compared to the previous days cos' i've music to listen to. Have been rather anti social towards my family lately. Now there're two perfectly good reasons: for the loss of my iPhone and i've another distraction. Alright. Enough talk on electronic devices.

Saturday. ♧


Say hello to my dearests: Angie, Melissa and Kirstin.

I don't know why Adilah wasn't in this picture. ): But nevermind. ADILAH, you know you're one of my dearests right? Hahaha, hope you do k! ^_____^ Hehehe. So anyway, the band went with the dance and choir members to watch LION KING. Okay. I've to say. It was spectacular. Many unique and really big props. The music produced was also good. Okay.

Lion King : ★★★★★★★★✩✩



Left: Melissa. Right: Kirstin.

#nowplaying SHINee's WOWOWOW.
One more day. And his papers will finally only left MCQ. So, we're going out on 5th. ^_____^ It's been DAYS since i saw him. I actually cried yesterday cos' i thought of him. Sigh. I REALLY MISS YOU LA HOR. T______T Sigh. Okay. That'll be all for today's post. I've nothing much to post anyway. So baibai for now. ^_________________^



Read this only if you're interested. {/Flashback}
I always underestimate the power of love. I thought it would bring me down, especially my self confidence. I guess that explains why i used to be so down when i was with {anonymous}. I finally found out why i've been always so down. That's because i've been with the wrong guy all the while, {anonymous}. You had never loved me, guess tyh was right afterall. You change your heart second after second. I should have believed him from the start. My love for you at that time blinded me from what was happening behind our relationship. Even when i saw you with her, i chose to ignore than to keep questioning you why why why. I chose to leave the situation quietly. I didn't wanna make a fuss of anything. You wanna know why? Cos' at that time, i just loved you and only you. Come to think of it.. i was wrong. I thought that you're PERFECT. Oh yeah, surely you are. What a two timer you were. I took a whole 1 month to get over you, did you know that? I cried every single night silently. My heart shattered into pieces and i thought there was no way i'm gonna pick myself up once again. I was emoing even without myself knowing the reason why i emo. I cried and cried over and over again. I thought there was no way i could get over you. It was until i was active on twitter once again. Then i started to know cwh. He was the one who brought me back up again. From pieces to one whole again. I always thought i'm strong, but as time passes by, i realised i'm not as strong as i thought. I'm a really weak person. My family neglects me, my friends neglect me at times. So i was practically left with only twitter. And back to you, {anonymous}. I can't believe you fucking did this to me. And plus it was a fucking two times. I was really an idiot to accept you into my life, twice. I'm fucking horrible. Not knowing my mistakes. You're scary.. you cheated on me. I don't dare to trust you anymore. Not even as a friend. Don't ask me why.. i fucking hate to say this. But i think if i don't spit it out.. i'll continue to be this upset when i'm alone everytime.

Do you remember the day that you asked for a breakup? 3 June. On that night, i practically cried my whole heart out. I began thinking what have i gone wrong. I was reflecting and reflecting over and over again. But still, nothing came across my mind. Do you know why? That's because i wasn't in the wrong. But you were. Though on the outside, you look really goodlooking. But i doubt in the inside, you're actually equally good looking. I wonder how many girls' hearts have you shattered out there. Think you can't even count right? You said that it'll be better if we stay as friends. Well, i've a different opinion. I think we'd better remain as strangers for the rest of our lives. We're totally opposite from each other. You're never opened, you refuse to be my listening ear. You ignore me. Wow, so many others things have yet to be listed. You know what? Forget it, i guess we're not meant to be. Please just STOP pestering me alright. I've a boy to love out there okay?

You texted me just a few days ago.. asking if we could patch. I said a NO firmly. You kept asking why, and said you miss me. Don't ever tell me "I miss you" these three words, seriously. I don't believe you anymore.. i'm sorry to say this but.. it's true. I wonder what would happen if you see this. But i'm telling you, if you can't take it from here.. ignore the rest of the posts.. and click on the 'x' button on your right hand corner of your computer. I'm really warning you to do that. But i'll still continue on with this post.
You're a liar. A pathetic one. And i was an idiot. A fucking stupid one. Yeah, that was my fault. I wonder if you've realised that i've been ignoring you during band. I hope you did. Wanna know why? Cos' i'm scared of you.. i'm really scared. NOTHING'S OVER. This is the song that's playing on my iPod now. See, i can still survive and be this strong without you. Okay. This isn't my credit at all. This is thanks to my cwh. Okay. To end this post, i would just like to say. I'M SCARED OF YOU, {anonymous}.

I realise.. the past has been bugging me too much. I kept thinking of this.. and i think it'll be better if i say this out. Cos' i believe after typing this long post out, i'll feel much lighter and happier. Okay, and i am now. ^_________^ So i guess this blog has served its purpose. I'm currently listening to Just a dream. Yeah. I shouldn't think 'bout the past anymore. I should move on.. be myself. Be happy and contented with life. Love cwh as much as possible, miss him as much as possible. Love.. so powerful. At least i can feel someone who's there for me. Even when it was just a text message. See. How powerful is love.

I was thinkin 'bout you, thinkin' 'bout me, thinkin' 'bout us, what we're gonn be. Open my eyes. It was only just a dream. So i travel back, down that road. Will you come back, no one knows, i realise, it was only just a dream.